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2003-06-08 - 2:40 a.m. OK, it's been forever since i've posted. Grr, let's see, where do i start? Re: Guilds Well, things have sort have calmed down. I'm on subcouncil and I guess it's OK. I've quit caring as much as I used to. I do a lot (or I used to) so I got so fed up with everyone telling me I didn't do enough. I've been around in circles many times. My work and family come first and they just have to deal with it. I post and donate when I can, otherwise, well whatever. I'm doing a lot now and I think we've come to an understanding...sort of. I was supposed to help with their website cause I'm good with this stuff. Well, suddenly I'm not allowed to help or whatever...I never even got codes to help this time. (So much for them begging for my help like they were before.) My website vs. theirs...hmmm, no contest. Anyways. Then I post a link to this "gallery" I made and suddenly all my guild powers are gone! Someone jumped to stupid conclusions without asking me and just had a hissy fit. I mean, c'mon get your facts straight first. I finally got 2 powers back...I used to have 5. Do i really need babysitting? I'm a grown adult. I enjoy it but please, some of these people need to get a grip! I do what I feel like and don't care anymore if I can't show up or do anything. It's not worth it anymore. Re: Work Work is work, as usual. I love my job (well, as much as can be expected) but the people are crazy! So many drama queens, so many backstabbing people. We promote family and togetherness to our guests and then the castmembers act like this. It just makes you sick! It's pretty sad when you like the guests more than some of the people you're working with. :( One day I'll be an animator and look back on this and laugh... Re:Buffy Wow, I can't believe my favorite show is over! I have been such a part of the show, and it's made a serious impact in my life. I relate to the characters, and sometimes it makes me feel better being able to relate to something. I am really going to miss it. Angel is cool, but Buffy started it all! It's been amazing to be able to see all of the characters grow. I'm still hoping for my B/A ending, but we'll see. Looking kinda hopeful. All I can say is wow. Probably more to come but I can't clear things up at the moment... Re: Friends Friendship. Isn't it an interesting thing? Being a military brat, frienships were almost sacred. I'm still in touch with a friend from 1st grade and a friend from 6th grade (which is a novelty when you move around a lot.) Once I'm your friend, you're my friend for life. My core group of "best friends" (greatest friends from each place I've lived...I believe you can have more than one) are the most awesome people. I couldn't live without them. They accept you no matter what you've done, who you are, what you look like. They love you unconditionally and they always accept you. Friends are like family. They never judge or try to change you. This is what I truly believe a friend to be. Unfortunately, lately I've found that some people I thought were my friends down here (unassociated with my best friends...trust me) are not what they seem. Would your friend constantly lecture you, put you down, ignore you or treat you like dirt? Would your friend act nice to your face while secretly plotting against you? Would they betray your confidence or make fun of your thoughts and feelings? Would your friend "dis" you to go somewhere else when you had plans or change personality when suddenly another friend or family comes to town? Didn't think so. I have so-called friends that do this. I have finally realized that these people are not my friends. They could be pals to hang out with, but as for true friends, they never come close. These people can be really nice, but as far as their treatment of me, it's seriously lacking. (With friends like these, who needs enemies?) I have a tendency to be too trusting of people and always give them the benefit of the doubt. This has gotten me in trouble before. You shouldn't have to watch your back or look over your shoulder with friends. (They should be watching your back!) It's sad that these people can walk all over me and eventually I still take them back. It goes back to that "friend for life" thing, but I just have to remember not to let them get too close. Why do I take this? Not sure, but probably because I always see the good in people. It depresses me when I find out people are not what they seem. I have a big heart and naturally assume that others do too. When things like this start to bring me down, I always think back to my best friends...the ones who I can call after not talking on the phone for a few months (too expensive...long story) and we instantly click. The ones who will fly from all corners of the world to be at my wedding. The ones who I can laugh with, cry with, ask stupid questions or get knowledge from. The ones who fly from another country to come visit. These are my true friends. The ones I will never part with. (If any of you read this, thanks for all of your love and support.) RE: Gizmo My little Gizzy passed on on April 7th. It's really painful, so I just recently was able to write about it. She was my little hamster, my hammy. Before you think I'm nuts, hear me out. We're not allowed to have pets (except for hamsters and the like) so she was like my baby. She was our first real pet together. (My poor fish Xander died too :( Not sure what I'm doing wrong. He was so cute...he knew me and everything! He was awesome as well and I miss him too.) We have a lot of pics of Gizzy. She was cute and smart. So cute! My little cutie. Very smart...she got out of her cage and ball countless times. (She got out after having the cage inside an empty fish tannk larger than the cage...on top of a stand.) I really miss her. I tried everything at the end...we spent all night going to vets offices. She got sick so suddenly...when I noticed the problem it was only a few hours before she was gone. She was only a year old, too. It still tears me up because I keep wondering "what if" and if I could have done more...anything...something different. I drove by the vets office where we left her the other day and burst into tears. She died in my hands on the way. I'm still very sad, but I try to remember her like I knew her best. It's hard getting those haunting images out of my head though. I made a little adoption dedication to her on my webbie, but it's hard to write poetry or anything just yet. I have a pic of her on my keyboard (computer) hanging in front of me as I type this. I wanted to go get another hamster to help me get though this, but that's not what i need. Little ones like this have feelings, too. People think i'm a bit strange but hamsters have thoughts and feelings too. I loved my baby. :( Whenever I was sad or depressed I'd play with her and I always felt better. I instinctively kept looking in her cage from across the room to just see what she was doing. I finally broke the habit, but i think of her often. RIP Gizzy, we miss you..) RE: My Vacation Well, I finally got to go on a vacation! My little bro (well, he's actually taller than me...) Graduated from college and I got to be there. Where has time gone? That's what I'd like to know. It made a lot of thing hit home going to that ceremony. I'm so proud of him! Well, i flew out there on a Sunday. (Just getting this time off was a real pain, but that's a whole other story.) We just kind of chilled, but it was weird because I was all alone that night. (For various reasons.) I stayed with my mom's parents. The next day we had a family reunion, which was a lot of fun. Family means so much to me! We also got to go see another grandma of mine. Since it was Memorial Day, we stopped by a National Cemetery. (More in the next section.) It was very moving and made me think. Tuesday was a day to just visit and hang out. Wednesday was the graduation ceremony and all the parties :). Then i flew home on Thursday. :( I missed my hubby a lot (he couldn't make it.) I miss my family a lot now, though. It's painful because I care about them so much! I appreciate them (I guess even more because of my background.) I'm so glad I got to see everyone. This vacation was so special! Re: Memorial Day On Memorial Day, we happened to be out driving and stumbled upon a National Cemetery that we weren't even really aware of (Somewhere in between LA and SD). We decided to check it out. The landscaping was so beautiful, and the whole place was massive. I am really glad we got to go to the National Cemetery on this day. My family used to go every year when we were living in Europe. We'd always take weekend trips to different memorials in France, Belgium, Luxembourg. We were always aware of how lucky we really were. It's very sobering...I think everyone should visit one. It really makes you think about all the people that have fought for and died for this country and what freedom really means. The cemetery we visited had a memorial for the Medal of Honor winners. That's one of the highest honors you can receive. And there was a long list of recipients... So many people are quick to trash the country, our troops and our president. They have no pride in our country. I say, go visit a few of these cemeteries (make Arlington and the Vietman Memorial at the top of your list) and then come back and see if your arguements make sense. Tears come to your eyes as you look over fields and fields of white crosses or a black wall with lists and lists of names. These are our heroes. I stand behind our troops, country, and president. More people need to get a clue as to what's going on. People need to check their facts before making wild and snap judgements. So many people have turned this holiday into a three-day weekend to party and an excuse to have a barbecue. They forget the true reason we are observing this day. Have pride in where you're from. Remember the people that have died for you and your rights. Honor their memories. Re: Everything else Married life still has its ups and downs. I love my hubby, but there's so much to learn! Wouldn't trade it though. The monetary situation sucks as usual. So what else is new? The usual daily grind is taking its toll. I never seem to have a life anymore! My family is still all in CA and I miss them a lot! My parents are in the process of transferring out there, so that's a bit scary. The farthest they've ever been is an 8 hr. drive away... We've got a friend visiting this weekend whose cool. It's fun. And my best friend is coming to visit in a few months! I can't wait! I'm so excited. I saw Chicago, X-Men 2, Matrix Reloaded, and Finding Nemo. They all rocked! Go see them! Awesome movies. Oh, we went to a Red Hot Chili Peppers concert on Tuesday, and it rocked! I really enjoyed myself and had a lot of fun. :) Oh, Go Ducks! Game 7, Stanley Cup...coming soon! It's be cool if they won, especially with the angel winning MLB last year :) Anyways. Well, think I caught up on everything, lol. (Did I write enough? lol)
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